Miserable

I feel so miserable today. like those days when your feelings play catch-up to you and slam you down to the ground with the impact of their mad chase. really most unpleasant. And the funny thing is, there's so much to be happy about! We made our goal at work, which til the very last week did not seem possible, but God brought all the money in, on time for the fiscal year end. That's fantastic and wonderful!
And I have friends living with me again, which is fun... and the stress of last week is gone, and new positions are being filled at work at last, and flowers are growing, and my sister got engaged and...
and it went from a rainy day to a beautiful sunny day. but i'm miserable and my heart is in my feet and i am mentally wrapping myself up to hold myself together and to be comforted somewhat.
i hurt and grieve and its not very timely at all.
and i'm going to the dentist for the first time in what might be 5 years. yuck.
i wish there was a happy pill one could take... besides anti-depressants.